Detour!

Hello!!

So i just want to start today off by saying that just because things happen in a difficult way it does not mean that you are not on the right track. Everyone jumps from one structure to another way of life differently.  I am talking about breakdowns, maybe pretend you can hear Robert Plant belting out Zeppelins, "Communication breakdown/its always the same/im having a nervous breakdown/drive me insane!". Remind me to some day talk about what really is a nervous breakdown anyway.  All of our human emotions get such a bad rap. Except for bliss, everyone frickin loves that one. Personally i need a little more passion then bliss.

Sometimes honestly the only way your own consciousness can get your attention is to kick and scream.  You might out of the blue get in a fight with someone you never fight with, or you may unexpectedly lose something you cared about. These moments do not feel good at all and can really bring a lot of old baggage to the surface. It's a Detour, re-route, lets go another way. "Tommy can you hear me?" As your own perceptions rise and you allow it to be for some good reason and just listen you will experience a trail of feel good synchronicity.

For example, yesterday was really a weird day. It was like 102 degrees out in October so its dry and dumb feeling. The kind of weather that produces agitation. My own perceptions were on the rise and details and info for my both my audience read tomorrow and a very large private party on Saturday were starting to get my attention.  My physical empathy was way high and the moment i started to move in my morning bootcamp class, i literally could feel everyone physical pains around me. Right foot, cramps. Left knee, ouch. Lower back, whats that? This is pain was previously not felt until class started.  My ears felt like the bionic women, super sonic, and the instructors yelling at us to move found me in my head saying a lot of negative shit back.

Usually I can relax, calm myself down and get back to the love and good feeling in my body. I remember before i left the house thinking that my energy field was getting a lot wider than i thought it would since i really didn't need it yet. Finally at one point i got such a bad pain in my side, I realized that to stay might have made things worse because i might of told the whole room to just "SHUT THE F UP, I CAN HEAR WHATS IN YOUR HEAD"! This stuff usually doesn't happen much because i know how to turn it on and off.  No matter how i tried, i could not turn off someones  very loud mind. So i actually left, half way through, i just left. I have only done that one other time in 5 years at this place, but i needed to before I made it worse! I had a yoga class i wanted to take later that day, so i knew i would sweat more, and the 30 min i did do was still exercise. I love to exercise, feels so good to move my body.

So i get in my car and go, and i feel very good about it. It was like i was on hyper focus. Let me just say before i continue, i listen to my intuition, i listen and take action. I have been practicing listening to myself my whole life and i don't get bogged down in the details and this is a benefit. What i mean is that it was so clear that i had to leave, that i didn't fight it, i went and i didn't question. I get home and eat breakfast, relax start to read, write, email etc. Booked so parties, etc. And then all the sudden i had to sit down and chant, like right then. I listened, since it was clear to me at this point that this day was all about the listening. The sitting down to chant was like "Leisa, you need your voice today and your voice now"! A name came into my mind the moment i started and three min later that person called. And my voice was exactly what it needed to be, this was a call that needed to be answered then. Honestly, it was clear the whole morning timed itself for this call. I forgot to mention that i almost went to a 90 min yoga first, a real debate for me, had i done that or stayed at the boot camp i may have not had good fortune to answer that call with such a clear head. It was the clear head i needed.

I live by my sixth senses, but we live on earth. All my gifts and ethereal skills are nothing if i can't live on this earth happily and joyfully. I feel like because i didn't hate myself or get upset because i had to leave, that  i knew myself better i was really able to extract the real jewel, the timing of the moment. Later, driving to yoga i saw a license plate in front of me with the name Ginny, i have a friend with that name and spelling so i naturally thought of her, but out loud i say Jennifer huh? Jennifer. When i walked into class the teacher said that maybe a girl named Jennifer that i didn't know would join us.I chuckled because i had just said that name out loud. She didn't show, oh well. One hour after i got home my phone rang, but i didn't recognize the number. Like most of the world i usually let it go to voicemail, but it was so clear that i should answer it. "Hi, you don't know me, but a friend referred you, my name is Jennifer! Oh Hi Jennifer, I've been expecting you! HAHAHAHA!

That was so uncomfortable to leave and have to listen to my voice and what i needed to do and not worry what people thought of me, or decide i was a loser. Instead, i was able to listen to my voice the rest of the day so loud and clear. I ended up with a couple of booked parties, a few privates and some random people coming to my show and get to meet a lovely person named Jennifer.  Oh and that very  personal phone call all timed with Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, just to prove that i was TOTALLY in rhythm and it was not a F'D UP DAY! ! All in a day. Go step by step. Its easy to got lost in the sensations of all around, but you are always number one!

Alright, hope it all makes sense
have a great night
Leisa

Listening

Tonight i was reminded of two things. First, the truth about being in pain, and second how easy it is to write ourselves a script about our lives and stick to it. I talked to a person today and immediately her dead father of four years came through and started naming the people in her family and i was excited to give this women a lovely medium reading from the other side. It was clear however very quickly that this women had a different agenda or way that she wanted to connect with her father, and as i was talking she told her father to shut up and stop being so controlling and that she was in control now.  Well it doesn't take a psychic to realize that clearly her life had been a painful one under the control of her father and really she didn't care what i knew about him at all, she was still working through rage and disconnect. She was asking him through me if he remembered this and that, i tried to explain that her dad is with her and that there is no summoning needed, but the only word that worked was YES.

The perfectionist in me wanted to say, "hey, that's not how it works, you don't tell me i tell you", but that really wasn't what this women needed because she was in pain and by the way she was talking it was clear that she also didn't want or wasn't able to change the stuff coming out of her mouth or her script. I won't lie, at one point i asked if she was intoxicated because the sound of her voice was so distant and she was calling him names. but she said no. I choose to let her connect with him in whatever way she wanted and towards the end my patience was rewarded and a deceased grandma came through which distracted her and lightened her up and then she was able to hear somethings from her father including apologies and proof that he was near by.  She was asking for love and support from her deceased loved ones, but when ever that comfort was approaching she would shut it down and i realized that sometimes the story of suffering is so large in us that even the light can feel obtrusive, invasive and painful because it threatens the darkness we might live in.  Giving up states of being or ways of life even if we suffer in them can be difficult because it is truly like breaking away an identity.

I remember how hard it was for me to lose weight and change myself.  I would hold onto my big legs and cry because i was going to miss them, miss me, miss this persona and person that everyone knew.  I grieved over the losing of my old self, so afraid that i was losing my identity. Honestly at times losing over one hundred pounds was like going through an identity crisis.  I mean i wasn't really able to get over the hump, like below one hundred ninety pounds until after forty years of age.  Forty years is a long enough time to never change. It took a lot of telling the old voice to shut the F$#@ up! As i hung up with this dear women i prayed that someday the pain i heard in her voice, that this being caught between holding onto the experience of her dead father and creating a life experience not based on him would happen and that joy would replace the angst.  After all four years wasn't that long ago and everyone grieves, heals and transforms differently. Plus these abilities i have are not for me anyway. Listening is listening. The first step in connection is listening. Thanks for listening.

p.s. i do not miss the old me at all!!!!!



Leisa

Tarot Time

OK today i feel like talking about the TAROT. I have been studying and reading the Tarot for about 28 years.  I have lots of traditional and also lots of non traditional decks. Although i absolutely don't need any tools whatsoever in my medium and psychic work, like many people the tarot is a great tool to begin to understand objectivity and your intuition.  I love the images on the cards and i love the organization of the 78 cards, the minor and major arcana and the 4 suits. Essentially, the tarot is a way or system of understanding human nature and the potentials that are continuously presented to us based on choice, happenstance and reaction.

Each suit has 10 minor cards and the also the court of King, Queen, Prince, and Page (or princess). Being raised Buddhist we have the concepts of the 10  worlds, and the tarot system has always kind of reminded me that.  The world of Hunger in Buddhist thought and the Ace of cups, for example don't have any real language or descriptive similarities at first glance, but this idea that we are constantly fluctuating from moment to moment as different states of feeling and perception is really the point. For this reason my most favorite card of all is the ACE of SWORDS. It is the sword of clear thinking and reminds me that no matter what chaos or transience is whirling around me i can hold a central thought and trust it. Thoughts such as i will pass that exam no matter what, or i will accomplish my dreams or a never give up spirit. It also speaks to trusting what you actually know about a situation and not being thrown off by others thoughts. 

I feel really lucky that my mom was so open to me and allowed me to give her one of my very first readings ever, i was 16 years old. My first deck was the Haindl deck and  I remember the six of swords came up in that reading and it spoke about her ability to be objective and not cave into emotional states that would produce doubt or confusion. This was true of her that day with me of course, but also this is actually my mothers strength. Someday i will tell you about when i robbed a Dairy Queen or about when my parents got divorced and you will understand the deep value of being objective. :0)

Now, i do love the swords, but i am actually not a rigid thinker at all. Talking to dead people lightens you up considerably and one must be able to fluctuate between different states of thought quickly and accurately. However, our minds can really create a lot of problems and there is a card for narrowness of the mind and that is the Prince of swords. The eight of swords is a person who is absolutely a prisoner of his or her mind and can't make decisions no matter what, always interfering with forward movement. The two of swords is a card of peace and just feels like a breath of fresh air. 

1 of swords - trust your intuition

2 of swords - Relax, be at peace

3 of swords - trauma is effecting your peace of mind

4 of swords - draw a truce with your mind

5 of swords - your fear of losing is to great

6 of swords -  use objectivity 

7 of swords - Let go of doubt and confusion

8 of swords - be quiet in your mind meditate

9 of swords - let go of pain in any form

10 of swords - don't quit

Prince of Swords - let go of narrow and limiting views

Princess of Swords - Don't let rebellion get the best of you

Queen of Swords - remove the masks and tell the truth

King of Swords - If you don't quit, you win!!!!

Hello, writing the list this way reminds me of an average commute on the freeway, anyone else? I will make a list like this again for the other suits, and BIG Cards in other blogs. That's pretty much going to be it for today, but i really do want to encourage you to see the cards as more then just predicting the future, but to understand its deeper value as a tool of self-reflection that points out when you are hot headed, or so sad that you can't see the truth. Or that your happiness and sunshine are hard earned and you should be proud. Below are some cards i just turned. Can you read them? Crazy how all those swords landed in center.  I also posted this on Instagram. My Instagram name is Pinkytlee.

Totally crazy that all those swords landed in the middle.  I DID NOT stage this LOL~~~  In this case the swords basically say,  SHHHHH relax your mind, its useless to keep being a prisoner of it, the indecesion is based on old wounds.  So I'm gonna let all that mental chatter go and let the outside cards be the truth!

Have a great night
Leisa

Good evening everyone. This is my first blog and my first blog entry and I sincerely hope I keep it up! My primary occupation is as a Medium (yes, like Theresa Caputo) and Psychic. I also teach Bikram Yoga and have been teaching it for 11 years. I currently teach just one class a week because my Medium and Psychic life is very full.  I actually love my job and find it endlessly fascinating but like anyone with any career when you are tired it can be overwhelming. So as long as I get good amounts of rest my work in this world feels like the beautiful light of unconditional love. I made a vow for happiness for myself and others, and everyday I re-commit to creating benefit, beauty and good.

I was also raised Buddhist from birth to a mother and father that chanted Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. Basically this translates to "I devote my life to the mystic law of cause and effect through my own voice or faculties". My Mother still chants and has for almost 50 years. My father stopped chanting and so did my brother when he was a teenager. However, my stepfather practice chants and has for 40 plus years, and I chant and always will because to be connected to the rhythm of the universe is a very exciting and special way of life.  Hopefully through this blog I will be able to share all my thoughts on Buddhism and also on my natural abilities to connect to the other side and basically know amazing things that I really should not. Of course I believe that we can all know everything, but that"s just me.

As I said above I also teach yoga. I graduated for Bikram Yoga College of India in the November of 2006.  I was 33 the time and still over 200 pounds. My highest ever was 240and now I am under 140 for life. I overcome my life long obesity through consistent exercise, 80 percent clean eating and deep desires to change my mind about my own self. Bikram yoga is true yoga in that its style of teaching and practice can create absolute mind body oneness.  "Heal your spine and you will heal your life".

OK, so this is just a beginning and I can't wait to share all of my stories with you. Medium stories, Buddha stories, crazy stories, everyday stories etc.  Oh and if anyone actually sees this blog before Thursday Oct, 26 and you live in LA, then come to Aum and Garden in Sherman Oaks where I will be doing a public group reading in an audience setting. Its at 7 pm and its just $20.

Have a great night everyone and please, please, please see more than there is to see, it's the only way!

Leisa