Poetry

Poetry
Discouraged that I can't touch you
Worried over my absentee choice of love
Every mirage has crumbled
Not even the desert remains
I wish I were floating on the moon,
But that's not true either
I'm sitting right here trying to see,
But in the dead of winter it's hard
My hanging heart hangs
By Leisa T. Mills

It doesn't matter if you experience darkness. Light and dark are fundamental parts of life. Don't be afraid to enter into the painful parts of life. You hold the lantern which means you are always safe. Faith is a lantern, faith will keep you seeing even in the darkest parts of life. The point is to not sit in the cave of darkness and shiver and shake with fear, but rather to illuminate those spaces with the light of your heart, which is faith. Happiness is absolutely a state of life that is possible for all people, absolute happiness is the knowledge of this. Knowing that at any given moment you are capable of extending the long arm of faith from your heart to anything that bothers you is powerful.

Life is so transient it sways back and forth from the moment of birth all the way until the moment of death. Shit happens, pain happens, injustice happens, no good things in every direction happen. Good also happens, good really honestly does happen. Healing happens, solutions happen, good news comes. There are two aspects of life, light and dark. It may feel that we have no control over the dark, but we absolutely have control over the light. Whenever you feel like there is no way, think again. Place your hand on your heart, and tell yourself "the heart matters most". Then open your eyes, your ears, your mind, all your senses and let the dark know that you have come to let it out of the pain, out of the shadows, and into the light were it doesn't have to hide anymore and instead will benefit from the true nature of oneness

Benefit, beauty and good, this is what i was taught. I have experienced heavy, heavy darkness in my life but it has no root, it has no hold. The light of my heart, the sword of my soul is an undefeated champion. My guts are used for all the right reasons and digests the dark into pure gold. Open up the passage ways and lead the pain to health, happiness and peace.

Way of Peace

"I am mindless and empty from full use of myself. If you want to learn to calm the mind you should try fulfilling your soul. A restless soul will never be filled from outside in. No you have to turn your insides out in full exposure. Then only by giving your absolute all and I mean really going for it,whatever it is, one hundred percent then with eyes wide open you will want for nothing." This is my own quote, i wrote it yesterday and put it on my social media. I felt so rested and unified within myself.

It's true i had given one hundred percent.  First i had a huge private function during the day where my energy field was extended to thousands of people and then in the evening i had a small group read.  Now this read was so interesting because i didn't promote the ways i normally do. I think mainly because of the time of the year, it was right after thanksgiving and i really like to rest after the holidays, because in my mind its time to get ready for the New Year. So i did super soft promotions and ten people showed instead of the normal twenty-five or so. You know the fact that i did one show every month for the past thirteen months with groups over 20 at a public venue really amazes me! I use to do Story telling shows and stand up comedy. I was always good at getting people to come and support me, but it to be for such a other worldly endeavor is awesome. In this moment i see clearly that if you offer yourself to others by sharing who you are, even through different phases the sharing is drawing people in, not the subject. The small group was absolutely perfect, 2 hours flew by like water.

Needless to say between the small group and the mid-day deal I had to be be very focused the whole day. It felt like one full day of leading a workshop. It was a successful day. I also had to turn around and get up at like five am so i could go teach the six forty-five am Bikram Yoga class in Encino. I was afraid that i wouldn't  get up or hear my alarm so i slept very lightly that night, but was in a great mood. I got up taught my class, took a class, proceeded to take another exercise class, come home, nap and then work my private business for almost five hours. It was between teaching the yoga class and taking the yoga class that i wrote my calm quote.

It just felt so good to really have to use all of myself like that. It's the feeling i used to get after a really good storytelling show, or comedy show. This feeling that you opened your whole heart and allowed yourself to be totally one with the moment. The present moment is the most important. This second right now is deciding the next. This feeling of not allowing any kind of separation in. No thoughts of fear, or worry or wondering what someone is thinking. It's almost like you are not even discerning objects, or shapes or forms even. It's not bliss though, its very grounded very on earth. To me taking true action for the sake of self and other is really what creates a mind undisturbed or plagued by suffering. You can experience peace with your eyes open. You don't need to go be alone and get rid of your ego. When you are engaged in true sharing, you are already there. Without one mind, your mind, but rather the mind of the whole. Exposing yourself for the sake of sharing your life with others. That's truly beautiful. That's love. That's ONENESS.

"I am mindless and empty from full use of myself. If you want to learn to calm the mind you should try fulfilling your soul. A restless soul will never be filled from outside in. No you have to turn your insides out in full exposure. Then only by giving your absolute all and I mean really going for it,whatever it is, one hundred percent then with eyes wide open you will want for nothing. -" Peace ❤️-Leisa